Daddy Day!

Dear Elijah,
This weekend was unusual for me because I had plans to go to a Woman of Faith conference with some ladies, and leave you with your dad. I first went last night for about 3 hours while you were home with daddy, but I came home and woke up early this morning to leave for the conference at 8am. This was the first time you and your daddy have been alone together for an extended period of time! The funny thing is, I totally trust your dad!... Well that's not funny... The actual funny thing was that although I trust him with you, I was still talking to him as if he were "the babysitter." Hahahaha. I measured out all your bottles and had them displayed on the counter all clean and ready to grab. I had the formula measured out, the baby food out and ready to go. I did ALL your laundry and put your clothes into categories nicely folded in your dresser. I explained that when you cry like this (insert cry noise) that means your tired and need to be put on our bed so that you know you can take a nap... "but you have to put him in the middle of the bed facing my side and lay on his left side because that's his favorite side, and he goes to sleep better facing you." I explained that this cry (insert cry sound) means he is hungry. Then I went on to tell your dad not to have anything planned that he wants to get done because if you start to fuss and need more attention, he may get frustrated at you because his focus is on something else. Hahahaha... I also explained that if you do cry for an extended period of time, to not worry about it... Babies cry, and don't get frazzled and out of sorts trying to get it to stop. Just be gentle and talk to him softly, and he will eventually calm down!!! Ok, OBVIOUSLY your dad is not a dummy! I think he knew all that ;) but being that this was my first time leaving you two alone for a while, I thought I needed to tell him everything! Thing is... you guys did GREAT! Other thing is... Your dad did things his way, and you were a happy baby all day long.Sometimes I get so focused on needing things one way, and don't realize that for other people it may be different. I forget that others also need to learn things organically and for themselves. I imposed all my ways on your daddy. I'm glad I caught myself and realized this revelation before I left for Women of Faith. When I got back, you were wearing an outfit I would never have put you in, your daddy had created a crazy play station for you that I would have never done, he used a blanked that is obviously just for looks ;) haha, and let you play with a toy that you usually only play with when mommy is changing you! It was so fun to see how different things were for you guys, and see how great your daddy was with you! He brought change into your life, and guess what? You survived! Hahahahaha. He is a good man, and you are our sunshine. So of course I missed you all day, and thought about kissing your cheeks, and holding you, and smelling you! I missed your smile and your laugh! UUUgh! I just really freaking missed you! So when I came back to you and daddy, you were sleeping in daddy's arms, and he kind of whispered in your ear... "mommy's home, look who's here baby." You opened your eyes..... Looked right at me.... and!!!!!! started crying! Stuck your lip out as far as it goes and cried! hahahahahahaha! So I took you into my arms and you were telling me all about how I was a horrible person for leaving you that long. I was giggling, hugging and kissing you till you were ready to not be mad at me anymore. It was the cutest thing ever! Then you were all smiles and sweetness. I LOVE you! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! Although I had a very pleasant time at my conference, there is nothing like coming back home to my family :) I got to hear Amy Grant, a Christian singer sing one of my favorite songs tonight. It's called "better than a hallelujah." Ok, babe, I better go... I have so much to write and so much on my mind... I have so much to tell you! But I will wait. Gotta go get my snuggle on with daddy now :) Good night sweet angel.

God loves a lullaby
In a mothers tears in the dead of night
Better than a Hallelujah sometimes.
God loves a drunkards cry,
The soldiers plea not to let him die
Better than a Hallelujah sometimes.

We pour out our miseries
God just hears a melody
Beautiful the mess we are
The honest cries of breaking hearts
Are better than a Hallelujah

The woman holding on for life,
The dying man giving up the fight
Are better than a Hallelujah sometimes
The tears of shame for what's been done,
The silence when the words won't come
Are better than a Hallelujah sometimes.

We pour out our miseries
God just hears a melody
Beautiful the mess we are
The honest cries of breaking hearts

Are better than a Hallelujah

Better than a church bell ringing,
Better than a choir singing out,singing out.

We pour out our miseries
God just hears a melody
Beautiful the mess we are
The honest cries of breaking hearts
Are better than a Hallelujah