It's So Different

Dear Elijah,
Who knew that we are capable of appreciating every big or tiny little thing about someone. It's so different with you. I have had the privilege, yes, PRIVILEGE, to see you grow from day one! I have got to experience every new expression, knew trick, new sound, and knew growth you have accomplished. I notice everything! Well, I like to think I do anyway, I'm sure God has got me beat on that one ;) Here is the thing. I was sitting here on the couch staring at you, and thinking about how much I absolutely love you and how I would be sad if any other baby in this world was not loved as much as you are loved by me and your daddy. The crazy thing is that before I was a mom, I did not know the depth of what motherhood can be. I had no idea how mommies felt, or what they would go through on a daily basis. Now that I am a mom, and I am seeing you and loving you, I can't understand how selfish I was before! Hahahahahaha. I seriously did not think about a lot of things that I think about now. Not like I was a completely selfish person, that's not what I'm saying, but being a mom has opened me up to so many things I would have never felt. I'm sure God has so many other ways as well to give people this kind of perspective. I'm glad he chose to give me you to teach me all this cool stuff, and let my heart feel all this love I never knew before. Funny because when I married your daddy, I knew that there was no other person in the world I could love like I love him. I learned soooooooooooo much just being married! I was able to really see him in a way I have never been able to with anyone else. He is my home. I am so happy that he taught me to love and care in a whole other way, just like you did with me Eli. I am most grateful for how God has given me people and experiences to build my character. God has given me empathy, love, and care for others, and He has built that more up in me since your daddy and you have been in my life. Without these blessings from Jesus, I wouldn't be able to love this deeply and appreciate the people (especially you) in my life, I love you baby boy! And if anyone is ever mean to you, I'll give em a knuckle sandwich ;) Hahahaahahahaha... Or pray for them very hard! Heehee

it's hot around here! So you have been wearing diapers ;)