Wednesday, December 21, 2011

I love a good party, but..... hmmmmm.

Dear Elijah,

Well, it’s been eventful around here. You are doing great! You are so brave and always trying to learn new things. Right now you are pulling yourself up using the furniture, and smiling really big every time you get on your feet. You always want to stand now. Sitting has become a terrible thing for you all of a sudden.  You cry if we sit you down on your bottom. You would always rather be holding onto one of us, or a piece of furniture practicing standing. You let go all the time and stand all by yourself! Your longest standing time is 20 seconds! Way to go! You are seriously so talented. You JUST turned 8 months and here you are standing on your own. You even brush our hands off of you when we try and help you balance. The other day you thought you could walk, and you let go, took one step and down you fell. I leapt up from the couch so fast, but I was 1 second too late. You bumped your little head! But that didn’t stop you… Nope, you just kept trying to stand on your own. Let’s just say, you have been taking lots of tumbles. Hard for me not to be a hover mom, and I try to give you your space to learn, but it’s so hard. So I hover, and then give you space, and then hover, and give you space. Hahahaha… Hey, less tumbles that way. You are such a boy, you never let tumbling, falling, or hurting yourself get in your way! That’s my little man! (um…. You just said “dada”) Like right this second… You and daddy are playing and he kept saying, “dada…dada… say dada!” and you did… GOOD JOB! It’s very cute. You make so many weird sounds. When you and I go shopping you spend most of the time saying… “mama… mama… mama” because I’m always walking through the store telling you to say that to keep you entertained. I still don’t really know though, if you actually know what you are saying. Hahaha

Now to the not so good stuff going on around us… We had you sleeping through the night a couple weeks ago. You were sleeping so good, and it only took us 2 nights of letting you cry a bit. You would cry, I would come and rub your head, and then you would go back to sleep. After two nights of that, you were perfect! Sleeping all the way till 7:30am. We were so glad and thankful. Then one night the neighbors started blasting music as loud as music can go at 4 IN THE MORNING!!! 4am! They woke you up and you were screaming, and I felt so bad for you that I brought you into our room, and you were so startled that you didn’t go back to sleep for a while. Finally you fell asleep, but since you were in our bed, you kept waking up wanting to nurse! AAAAaaaagh, it was so infuriating! Not you, but the fact that now you were all out of whack because of very inconsiderate people. The following night, the same thing happened. Then the night after that, the music was not as loud as the voices coming straight through your wall. We stood in your room, and heard them very clear and loud talking very yucky, and not nice. So again, we could not put you in your own crib! Finally the last straw was they parked in the driveway blocking our space. This is not the first time they had done this, and everyone who lives here knows that you are not supposed to park in the driveway since it blocks all the garages. I was already so upset from the past few nights, that I looked at your daddy and said, ok babe, give me the number of our property manager, because this is just rude and ridiculous! We got inside of our apartment and I was standing by the door hanging up the keys when I heard the neighbors come out of their place and start talking about us. They overheard me say that to your daddy, and started saying very mean things, and basically that we can complain all we want, they will just get worse… So they planned on rebelling if we reported them. Ugh! Then they said some other stuff that did not sit well with me, especially being a mother. I broke down. I felt trapped in a terrible place with no way out. They were not here when we moved in, and ever since they have been here, it’s been hard to be neighbors with them. We smile at them, we try to say hello, we are considerate, but nothing works. They will not say hello back, they won’t look at us, and they are very inconsiderate. So now we are in a situation where we want to try and stick it out because we don’t want to make it even worse than it is. Your daddy has tried talking to them. He went and knocked on their door three times, and they refuse to answer. They have no interest in hearing what we have to say I guess. We decided it’s unhealthy for us to stay here next to people who do not care, and also people we cannot trust at all. We have no idea what they are capable of, and my biggest concern is your safety and your daddy’s safety. After the third time of your daddy trying to talk to them, I told him to not bother anymore, that we tried, we prayed about it, and now we just have to move on. You and your daddy keep me in good spirits, but I will be honest, inside it kills me every day that we are here having to deal with our walls shaking from music being blasted, every day having to be ignored by our neighbors, and every night having to keep you in our room not because it’s what is best for you, but because we have no choice. I keep telling myself that other people in the world have it way worse than us, and God will help us through it! God is so good. I know that praying is the only way I’m able to stand this. Thank God for our friends and family who have been also praying. I just get all worked up because as a mommy, I want to give you the best environment that we possibly can. I want you to be surrounded by positive people, and  stuff. You know, all that jazzzzzzz… I’m quite protective, it’s my nature. So as of right now, you, daddy and I are searching for a new place to live!!! This means moving AGAIN! I don’t particularly like moving… But, I am thankful that we are able to move, and that our lease is almost up. Yay! Great timing God. We know this could have been a lot longer of a terrible situation, but at least it started getting really bad when our lease is almost up ;). Your daddy and I are trying to save money so that someday soon we can buy a house. We would love to raise a family in a house, and plan on someday, God willing, having more babies. To get you into a better neighborhood that may be more family friendly, we have to be willing to spend a tad more money on rent. Blah! Pretty lame! I told your daddy I would live in a studio apartment with half a kitchen as long it was mostly quiet, and the walls were a bit thicker than here ;). We happen to live on the one street in this area that is like the party street. It’s not just our neighbors, it’s all 3 of them, plus half of the block.  I guess if they are all in it together and all of them live on this block to party, we should be moving along ;) haha! We have been looking at 1 bedroom places in areas we are more familiar with. I have no worries about going to a one bedroom at all, I think we can totally do it! I mean, we love each other, so tight courters are great! Haha… Plus, I grew up in a one bedroom place with my brother sister and my mom, and we had the best time! Your grandma slept on a bed that pulled out from the wall! So cool! I used to think that was pretty awesome. So in my mind right now, the smaller the better ;) Save money, buy later! It will be exciting when the time comes to buy a house! But for now we are praying and having patients until we feel God is leading us in that direction. We are in the middle of praying for God to help us find a good new place to live. We have hope that God will lead us to where we should be. We had to rent this place in a hurry and never got to inspect the area, and also were very unfamiliar with this part of San Pedro. Now we have more time, and can really investigate! Hehe…  BUT, nothing can steal my CHRISTMAS SPIRIT!!! I mean this is a celebration of the best day ever! Jesus was born, and we get to think about just how awesome that day must have been! Angels singing, wise men traveling, bright star shining! AAAaaaah, it’s just lovely. Jesus is soooooooooooooo the reason for this wonderful season! We have been having the best time doing Holiday things, and walking through lights, decorating trees, and drinking hot cocoa. We have loved seeing your reaction to the brightness of Christmas. You laugh and love everything you have seen. You also got to watch your cousins in the church Christmas musical, and you loved it! You went to the dress rehearsal and the real show and you were bouncing along with the sweet songs, and watching all the kids, and also watching your daddy as a shepherd! Good stuff babe. Your first Christmas has so far been a blast, and it’s not even Christmas day yet!  I’ll keep you updated on our apartment hunt and how we are doing on getting a move on… hahaha! I love you Elijah, and you are so very important to us. God will find us another place. Hopefully a place where we can once again train you to sleep through the night peacefully. ;) Hmmmmmmm, maybe I’ll move us into my old room at my parents’ house and all 6 of us can share one bathroom! Hahahahahaha! You know what’s crazy? As funny as that statement sounds, there used to be 6 of us sharing that bathroom in grandma and grandpas house. Yep, it was my mom, my Dean, my sister (your nina), my sister Maila, my brother C.J., my little bro Jake, and me… Wait, that’s 7!!! Oh no wait, Melissa lived in the back apartment at that time, so yes there were only 6 of us ;) Hahahahaha… You see, I can make anything work ;) Oh oh oh before I go, one of my favorite stories was when your uncle Jake, my little brother, was only 3 years old, and I was 17, we both had to pee so bad that we were racing to the bathroom. I was like, “No Jake, move, I’m going to pee my pants”, and he was pushing me and pulling my leg yelling, “Phee, phee, no, me first! I have to pee!!!” We were racing to the door and as we were trying to push each other out of the doorway, he slid between my legs, got to the toilet and did his thing… So not fair! Yes, I was fighting with a 3 year old, but he was just as strong and stubborn as I was. Hahaha… Ok, I’m done… Love ya!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Learning, learning, and more learning!

Dear Elijah,

Every day is so new. Step by step I’m learning how to be a woman of faith, a wife and a mom.  I’m learning how to be a good friend, and also stay true to what I believe. Oh gosh Elijah, sometimes it can be a little intimidating to be a mommy. I feel motherhood slowly becoming more and more intimidating. Not in a bad way at all, but in a pushing me to be stronger way. You are not always going to be a baby, and you are growing day by day and depending on your dad and I. I know we are not alone by any means, so that helps. We have a relationship with the ultimate father/parent that will prompt us to make wise decisions concerning you and other things. I wonder if any other moms ever feel that quick, passing feeling of, “Yikes!!!” Hahaha… I do. As much as I read, pray or feel educated on parenting, I sometimes ask the question “am I doing the right thing here?” You are getting to that age where you are showing signs of stubbornness, and strong will, and I know that there are ways to nurture those things in you and shape them so that they are not out of control or naughty.  I’m just learning how to do that right now. No matter how many babies I’ve been around, I’ve never raised my own before, and I of course want to do everything right! Hahahaha, I know that is impossible seeing as how I am not perfect, but I at least want to know, and want you to know that I gave it my best shot! Right now, as of late, you have been throwing real live fits, tantrums if you will… You make your voice reach a level that can pierce through an ear drum. Although I find you adorable in any situation, this tantrum throwing, although quite normal and natural for your age, has got me thrown for a loop! I know how I am supposed to deal with your fits, but it’s hard to do. I do not like to hear you sad or upset, but I also do not want to give in to or feed that kind of behavior. If it were up to me, I would hold and coddle you all the time, but me thinks that makes for a spoiled child. ;) I enjoy learning how to be a loving mommy, and I enjoy the encouragement I get from your daddy and others around me. I’m telling you Elijah, being a mom is like the best role in the entire world. Well that’s how I feel about it anyway. Even when you are difficult, you are loveable… Even when you are screaming, you are loveable… Even when we are both tired, and just need a nap and are cranky… We are loveable!

Other things that are going on with you right now are, rocking back and forth on your hands and knees, lots more talking baby talk, becoming way more aware of what things are around you, and who is around you, and you are wanting to stand ALL THE TIME! You are so strong, and so determined to move. You do not give up, and you are constantly trying new things and new moevements. You are so sweet, and for the most part except for the occasional tantrum, you are a very mellow, go with the flow kind of baby. We have always been able to bring you around everywhere with us, and you enjoy it! You are a pleasure in the store, and you are a pleasure in Starbucks even when you are throwing napkins on the floor and spilling drinks. Hahaha. You stay quiet still in church which is pretty amazing. We have yet to take you to the nursery. You give out an occasional laugh or sound, but for the most part you stay quiet while pastor Nathan is preaching  :) I love our church and how kid friendly it is. That really makes us feel good.

We got our first Christmas tree yesterday, and then decorated it last night after going to buy some ornaments :) I can’t even tell you how excited I was the entire day! I was jumping up and down, making crazy faces, screaming to your daddy, “It’s our fiiiiiiiiiiirst Christmas TREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!” I kept saying, “Aren’t you excited? I mean Isn’t this the best time ever!!! Trees!!!” He was excited, but was not showing his excitement enough I thought. So I called him a scrooge… To which he replied, “Bah humbug!” heehee… He was excited, but to prove that he was just as excited as I was, he took us to Target and bought us red shirts to go to the Christmas tree lot in! Hahahahahaha… He’s funny! He thought it would show me that he was too in the Christmas spirit. Proving a point with a Christmas shirt??? SURE!!! I’ll take it! When we walked into the lot, all three of us were dressed in RED! We looked like the dweebiest family EVER! We proudly strutted our red clothes and walked into the sea of Christmas trees all of which you grabbed… You were grabbing trees left and right and squiling with excitement! You are definitely my baby! The funniest thing was that since Mike was wearing a red shirt, and was super into finding us the perfect tree, everyone thought he worked there and kept asking him questions! Hahahahahaha… I laughed so hard every time because it was hilarious. He would always look so confused as to why people were asking him how much trees were and if he could grab a tree for them and cut it open. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Then they would look over at you and I and get embarrassed realizing that we were all together… The family in Red… I took mounds of pictures, as I always do, and we found our perfect tree! We were standing in line with the biggest smiles on our faces, all three of us! I take so many pictures of everything we do because I always want to be able to look back at these precious moments and never forget them! I get a lot of joy from taking pictures! I think the camera is amazing, and such a cool way to remember things. I have an amazing memory, but I know someday that won’t always be the case, and I want you to be able to have snap shots of all the awesome times we have had as a family. I am by no means a professional photographer, but I love taking pictures, and I love photography! I love the art in it, and the idea of it. I enjoy capturing hard to capture moments and expressions. You know what’s funny is that your uncle, aunt and I have no videos of when we were little, and I still have no idea what I looked like as a new born baby. It’s because my pictures were lost, and my mom did not have a video camera. Maybe that’s why I’m so into videos and pictures. Hahahaha, or just because you are too cute to not take a trillion pictures of ;)

 I love you my little fickle friend. That’s what I call you sometimes for fun. Babies can go from smiling to crying pretty fast, so I call you my fickle friend. Kind of how mommy was when she was pregnant of you! Hahaha… I hope you wake up from your nap soon, cuz I miss ya :)
watching Rudolph The Red Nose Reindeer

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Soggy Cereal and Cold Soup...

Dear Elijah,
Well, we had a very eventful Thanksgiving weekend, a super fun week, and this weekend has been a blast too! For Thanksgiving weekend we decided to head up to Washington to spend the holiday with our family up there. We saw Your great grandma Karen, your great grandpa Joe, your great uncle Brad, your great Aunt Sarah, your cousin Max, your great grandpa John, and your great step grandma Linea. Your grandma and grandpa Holland took the road trip with us, and it was fun. We took our time, stopped at rest stops, and you did great. Only had a few flip outs on the road from being sick of your stinky car seat ;) Your daddy and I must have read you your favorite book, Bubble, Bubbles, at least 30 times if not more. Hahahaha... You would cry every time the story was over! You do that even when you are not in the car though, you just really love that book... haha. We were able to walk around Pikes Market, meet up with friends and walk around downtown Seattle, and we got your first picture with Santa! I thought it was cute. I personally do not have any pictures with Santa growing up, so I thought, why not!? It will be a good memory ;) We also got to meet up with most of our Seattle friends another night for dinner and you let every single one of them hold you! It was so nice for us to see everyone! We also got to walk around some cute little towns that I had never seen before. These places had little shops, bakeries (yum!) and coffee shops! I really, really had fun taking you around everywhere and watching you look around and enjoy the scenery! You are a nature boy, so you loved all the trees, leaves and rain. You thought the rain drops falling on your stroller rain guard were hilarious! We stayed all of our nights at my uncle Brad and Aunt Sarah's, so we got to spend some good time with my grandparents and them playing cards and dice! :) But it was very cool to be able to spend a day visiting your dad's grandpa John and his wife Linea. They were so sweet, and loved seeing you. Your great grandpa John gave you $20 bucks for your piggy bank. heehee, how sweet :) We also enjoyed their back yard where there was a big lake and dock to play on. Linea made us all Swedish pancakes, and those were so good that I actually made them myself yesterday morning for us. Altogether it was a very nice trip and a great vacation.
The past few days I've been decoration for Christmas, and you have been enjoying that. You love the lights and the colorful things I've been putting around the house. We are actually getting our first Christmas tree ever tonight! It's our, as well as your first Christmas tree! Our first married Christmas we didn't get one since we lived in Seattle and were coming to California for Christmas. Instead we bought a tiny, fake white tree, WHICH I will always treasure ;) But yay for all three of us getting our first tree! We went with grandma, grandpa, and uncle Jake to help them get their tree the night before last, and then last night helped the decorate it! That was so fun. It's a tradition ;) we always go all together to get the tree and then go to Fantastic Cafe right after. Then we all decorate it together while drinking my moms homemade hot chocolate with candy canes in it. Mmmmmmmm! Good stuff. Now it's our turn! :) I'm so excited! Yeeeps!
I've also come to the conclusion that mommy may never drink a hot drink hot, warm at best... haha! All my food I have gotten used to eating on the colder side, and all my cereal on the soggy side. Seems like every time I go to eat, you need me. Hahahaha, no matter, I don't mind. I've actually grown to appreciate cold food, and soggy stuff. hahahaha. Daddy always jokes about when the last time he drank hot coffee was? Hahaha... when we go to Starbucks he waits for his coffee to cool a bit, but by the time it's drinkable, you need him... Hahahahahahaha. Oh fun... Ok, well I love you and I love you and I love you! You are the cutest, sweetest, most adorable baby in the world! We do not know what we would do without you! You are our little pride and joy. Love ya!